Finances

I returned to the Law of Attraction stuff after a month-long funk about my finances. Immediately I had manifested some pretty cool stuff (digital piano, etc), and I've noticed I seem to get a lot more cash tips lately; I've been picturing having more folding money, so that's congruent. Also, my return to concentrating on feeling good has really helped me deal with some stresses in my life and the lives of my friends, and I appreciate that.

My girlfriend is moving in, and because of that I'm having a good look at my finances. She's better than me at keeping up with hers, and I hope she'll be a good influence on me. I updated all my bank accounts in Quicken for the first time in months last night (my general stance is to follow my bliss, and everyone says ignorance is bliss), and I'm happy to say that, while I didn't detect any good news in the process, I didn't find it as discouraging or frustrating as usual. Still discouraged; just not as much as usual. So that's a positive thing, in a way.

I'm hoping that looking at the actual numbers on the computer screen will give me more tools to visualize better finances. If I'm not sure how broke I am it's hard to picture it getting better, I reason. Plus ignorance makes more room for missing payments and getting into trouble in general. Keeping up with it will prove to me that there's nothing to be afraid of, another positive thought that will pave the way toward being in alignment.

I remember when I got my first computer, soon after graduating nursing school. My favorite thing to do was put all my transactions into Quicken and see the numbers neatly add up (or subtract down); watch my credit cards dwindle away to a zero balance; reconcile all my accounts against their statements and always have everything come out correctly. I'm not sure what happened--I think it started when I realized that the power wouldn't get turned off immediately if I missed a payment. In any case, it wasn't fun any more after a few years, and it's felt like a struggle since then, whether I have a good income or a less-than-good one.

My goal is to make it fun again--like an old married couple reconnecting to the love they felt when they first got together. Do they offer marriage counseling for people and their checkbooks?